June 20, 2016: the day I found out that cancer is not just
something that happens to other people. It is something that has happened to
me. I have been diagnosed with breast cancer that will require a mastectomy.
This is scheduled for August 3.
I have to say, I have been amazed with the Lord’s provision
over me in this time. One huge provision is that in April, I felt a marble-like
mass in my monthly self-breast exam. This mass eventually led me to my ObGyn’s
office where a mammogram and breast Ultrasound were ordered. These imaging
studies revealed that the marble-like mass I felt was a benign cyst; however,
there was a separate suspicious area on my mammogram. A stereotactic biopsy of
that suspicious area led to my diagnosis of breast cancer. Without that benign
cyst, I would still be walking around completely oblivious to what an MRI has
now shown to be a 9x6x4cm area of non-palpable breast cancer. God is truly so
good. All the time.
In Matthew 11:28-30, Jesus says:
28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will
give you rest.
29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly
in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.
Let me tell you, God has made me feel light, and my soul
truly has found rest in this heavy-laden time. He is carrying this burden for
me. While I certainly have had moments of sadness, tearful times, and moments
of “freak-out,” overall I have felt so incredibly peaceful, stable, and I have
felt such courage. This comes from the Lord, is definitely not my norm, and is
another huge provision in my life.
Though Chad and I are normally fairly private in our praise of one another, I have to take a moment to give him a proper shout-out. He is gentle and
tender, yet strong. He is sacrificial, humble, loving, thoughtful, loyal, patient and
trustworthy. This has not been easy for him, yet he continues to put me first. He is consistently a million bazillion things that make me so grateful, and make him yet another of many provisions from the Lord on my life.
For those of you who have been praying for us: thank you.
God is truly at work through your prayers. If you are wondering what you can do
for me – right now, prayer is the only thing I know for sure I need. Although, I
know a time is coming soon when I will have more physically tangible needs, and
there are a couple links along with prayer requests in the right sidebars that provide insight on what those needs might look like.
I am so sorry I wasn’t able to share with each of you before
posting this. From here on out, I will be providing updates through this site,
so this will be your go-to if you want to stay in the know about my journey
moving through cancer.
“Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify
you.” Psalm 63:3
